between best friends and lovers



Every time I go through a breakup, I think to myself “I’m never going to expect anything from anyone ever again,” and “I wish I could have a fun casual relationship.” After losing all forms of contact and becoming maybe even further than a stranger with the person I was closest to, I regretted going into a relationship with them in the first place. I wished we never pursued the relationship and remained friends.


And while I was feeling like that, I met someone who was looking for something similar to what I was looking for. Hearing the term “friends with benefits”, you might imagine a purely physical relationship. But we don’t have a relationship where we only see each other when we need to. They are the closest friend I have, and while we act like lovers, we can’t fall for each other.